Dear Diary.

Today was quite a productive day.

Studied for 6 hours straight before shopping at pasar malam for dinner. Sense the laughter i have no energy to release.

Im now doing chem tys.

Do you think all this sudden act of dilligence and hardwork will pay off or am i just kidding myself and in actual fact just trying to tire myself into numbing my sense of helplessness?

They say all who put in effort get what they deserve or otherwise put as you reap what u sow.

But living in a practical world, you do not really get fair treatment all the time. Just naming a few people i knew who put in effort throughout the year and just few days ago they find out they did not do as well as they deserve,

So do you tell me. Will i get what i feel i deserve or is some asshole out there putting in the impossible hours outshining me?